Insomnia

The tears in my eyes threaten to spill

The strength I long to have is far from me

Truth is impossible to deny when I find myself again alone 

Lies of the day echoing all around

Happy is not something I can chose to be

Healthy no blessing to count

I am no more than this heap of quivering and

I am much less than I pretend 

Perhaps they were always right

I cannot do it alone

If only that were a choice I had made, as so many assume

Instead of a reality forced by something unknown

So strong for everyone else

At least there were times that I was

Now I wonder if I can be strong at all

Or if the dam has finally burst

The tears are openly beginning to fall

And the chance for anything else 

Is as far away as it seems

As untrue as I always believed