We Are All Weak

So...I have been in the mood to write again lately (which is great) so I decided to go back to a list of topics I was making my way through last year. I got not quite half way through and then started doing a book challenge so I quit. I still have the list, however,  and have decided I want to try and finish it up.

So the next topic is: Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

If only 5 were all there were.

1. Being hard on myself
. I push myself too hard. I am not in great health. I have a legitimate reason why I cannot do as much and go as long as most people my age. I know that, but I get frustrated with myself if I cannot do the things I think I should be doing or want to be doing. I tend to just say yes and do things even when I know I shouldn't. I need a lot of sleep, I need to not be physically over active, but...I do things anyway. You only live once right? Only...deep down I know that my quality of life would be better if I would learn to say no sometimes. This may seem really strange to some of you who probably feel like I say NO all the time, but really I should way more often.

2. Budgeting. I really suck at this. I mean I have a budget that is so well laid out and thought through and with it I can totally make my not so lucrative pay check pay all my bills. I could do it. I just don't. I write it out but I never follow it! Almost every paycheck I am stretching to make it through the last few days without being overdrawn. That is sad at my age I know. I suck at budgeting and spending.

3. Self Esteem. I have none. I mean I know there are things I am good at. I know that other people should not determine how I feel about myself. I know I have to love me before anyone else can. I know all those things. I still have low self esteem. I just see my faults so huge and have a hard time moving past them. It is something I am working on. I am becoming more comfortable in my own skin. I admit it is a slow process though.

4. Emotional Eating. I am really over-weight. It is because I eat my emotions. And I have a lot of emotions! I am working on this, but it is an up and down battle. Again, this is because of emotions. When I am doing well I start to lose weight and get things under control. Then something happens (like...another surgery) and I get upset and I start eating again. This is probably my biggest personal weakness.

5. Procrastinating. I never used to be a procrastinator! I was always the annoying girl in school who had her project done and turned in a week before the due date. I showed up early to EVERYTHING. I am not sure what happened, but I am NOT that person anymore. I constantly have a to-do list and I am constantly putting it off. And usually I put it off till it is overdue or already past or what-ever the case may be. I do NOT like this in other people and even less in myself!

So there you have it. A look at a few of the many reasons I am weak. What a depressing topic to start on! I might have to do the next one (predictably...strengths) soon! :)