So I decided it is time I updated you all on my Mom. Unfortunately there is no way to spin this one or make it sound better than it is. Things are going downhill, quickly. It is amazing how fast things can change. When Mom made the choice to begin hospice her doctors and the hospice practitioners all seemed in agreement with us that she was very strong and had a lot of time to live. In face, her oncology doctors even spoke with her about the possibility of resting with hospice for several months and then returning to active treatment. Although we knew the end was coming, none of us felt that it was coming with any particular haste.
In the past 3 days however, my Mother's body has decided it can no longer keep up with her spirit. It is simply giving out on her. She is struggling to live and it is terrible to see her in so much pain. We do not know how much longer she will hold on but we hope she will not tarry too long in this state. As much as the thought of losing her terrifies me, the thought of her living like this is much worse.
I apologize to everyone who gave so generously and willingly to build my Mom's ramp. Know that the little bit she was able to use it she loved it. I truly expected her to get much more use and joy out of it. The way you showed your love in support of us will never be forgotten - no matter if I was misguided in my quest for it or not.
At this point please know that your support and comments of prayers and love are SO appreciated and coveted, however we might not always be able to respond to personal messages or phone calls for awhile. Family is here with us and we are trying to spend this time with her and with each other. Thank you so much for making this journey with us. Your encouragement and the way you have held us up has helped more than we know how to say. For now we ask simply to pray for Peace. For my Mom to find peace and for all of us to have peace about it as well.
3 comments:
I'm so sorry to hear that things have turned this way. I know how hard it is to see a parent go through pain aND try to stay strong. I remember when my dad was placed on hospice they told us the same thing he could stay on it for a few months and go back to trying to get him up and going again. I know it's a hard time and I will be praying for peace and comfort during this time.
Karla please give your mom--and dad--a big hug from all of us Ruckers. My heart is breaking for you all, but also for the friend and example your mom (and dad) has always been to us. We love you!!! Praying
We understand what you are going through and the feeling. We are praying with you.
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