Student at Heart

So apparently I don't work well without deadlines...or assignments. When I was doing the book challenge I posted daily and LOVED doing it. Now that I have the freedom to write about whatever I want, whenever I want, yeah I haven't been doing it at all. I guess I work better with a little direction. I think it is the student in me. I was one of "those" students (my whole life) who LOVED mapping out when to do each assignment and who NEVER turned things in late. My whole college career I would get so mad b/c all my fellow religion majors would just not do their work and just turn it in later. They didn't get why this angered me, why don't you turn it in late too, they would ask. What??!! There is a DUE DATE people, you have to DO it by that DATE! It is just the way things work...apparently I still think in these terms!

I also still think about becoming a student. Again. I already have 3 degrees. I really don't need more. Still, I am always thinking about it. I would really love to do a PhD. That has always been a dream. Not because I want a better (or even different) job, not because I feel my education is lacking, but just because I want to do it. I always assumed I would get one in theology, but these days that seems kind of narcissistic. Is that the right word? I am not sure. I wouldn't be using it for anything...it would just be something I want to do, for myself. I don't regret my first two degrees or anything I have learned in theology, but to get ANOTHER one...might be taking it too far. What I think would be incredible would be to find a program that has a doctorate in Children's Literature. It would have relevance to my job, and it would be AWESOME. I think it would push me to write more as well.

Truthfully, though, I can't do that. Not right now anyway. My life is VERY full and busy. I really want to start giving more attention to my Premier Business, and to myself. I have been dieting and trying to find exercises that will work with my limitations. I am learning to cook and trying to write more often. I have too many sticks in the pot....wait that is not right, I can't remember the saying but...the gist is I don't have time. It is still a dream though...always in the back of my mind.

Day 23: Book you tell people you’ve read, but haven’t actually finished

Oh no....not this. I can't tell...I can hear the collective gasps already....okay, okay. I admit it. Don't shoot me...I have never actually finished

The Lord of the Rings trilogy by J.R.R. Tolkien

I don't know why!!! I LOVE these kinds of stories. I love fantasy, I love new worlds, I love wizards, I love elves and trolls, I even love Hobbits...but I just couldn't get all the way through these books!! I read the Hobbit. Loved it. Read The Fellowship of the Ring...it was okay. Got about 1/4 of the way into the Two Towers and just gave up. I never do that!! I finish books even when they are not good. Refer to my most embarrassing book post several days back....even when they are awful I just always believe they are going to pull out and be good in the end. And in this case...I KNOW they do! I adored the movies. I love the characters....I just haven't read the books!

My head is hung in shame. I feel it necessary now to admit I am a fraud, I am not really a nerd, not really a geek, not really a book crazy person.....BUT I AM!!! I swear I am. One day I will try again...maybe. I don't know. As I have mentioned before I do live by the code that life is too short to read a bad book. I am NOT saying these are bad books. I just....I don't know people. It is truly one of life's mysteries...please don't judge me. I can't take it....


Go read what Karissa has lied about and forget everything I just said!! :)