"I think if you will do this for ONE WEEK you will be shocked at how good you feel and how much weight you will lose"
Well...shocked I can give her
Good.....not even close!!!
Last week was HORRIBLE!!! Okay I know that I have a lot of health issues that not everyone has so it was probably worse for me than for normal Joe Smoe AND I had really bad eating habits so that probably made it worse as well but seriously...not one of the bajillion blogs I read about switching to clean eating mentioned how HARD it was going to be?? NOT ONE???....
Thank you Internet.
So let me break it down.
Monday and Tuesday - massive migraine and felt light headed and dizzy the entire time. I truly convinced myself this was all about caffeine and protein loss (and it probably mostly was) and I would be fine. Got me some nuts to eat...the world is better right?
Wednesday....this was like Dday for me. I mean the WORST. I was supposed to be taking the morning off b/c we were getting one house ready for photographs for the realtor and a roofer was coming for the other house. Only problem? I couldn't stay out of bed for more than 30 min at a time. It was horrid. I hurt ALL OVER. My fibromyalgia flared up like someone poked it with a fire stick, I thought I was going to be sick all day...it was TERRIBLE. I mean seriously. Really bad.
Luckily that night my awesome friend Allison (no really, she is in grad school in London and for fun in her spare time she is interning with the London Symphony orchestra chorus....see? awesome...) got online to chat with me and give me some encouragement. She dropped the obvious on me...my body was detoxing....and it was not happy. All the chemicals and toxins and crap it was used to having were missing and it was yelling at me. A lot.
That actually made me feel better. At least I had a reason to be feeling so bad. I went to bed (but didn't sleep b/c I forgot to mention....insomnia also has invaded all week...barely sleeping at all)
Thursday got up feeling a little better so I went to work but...downhill as the day went by. At one point late afternoon I realized I was sitting at my desk in tears. I was just in that much pain that it was making me cry. So....left work a few hours early and went home, back to bed. Was really depressed that night. I HATE when my health interferes with work. It makes me angry and helpless feeling all at once. SO that night I learned a new important lesson.
Stress eating is still possible with health food......yep I ate a whole bag of healthy "clean" trail mix. Guess what? Not so healthy when you eat it like that. So that was important for me to realize. I can't just say well I am eating healthy foods so I can do whatever I want. I still have to change my bad eating habits....ESPECIALLY the stress eating one! I was sick as a dog all night long obviously.
The weekend was actually much better. I was tired, still am but everyday has been better than the last. I think maybe my body is finally starting to calm down a bit and accept what is going on. But I just gotta say, this was NO easy thing. Last week was hell. I haven't felt that bad in a really long time. and I still don't feel great. I am sure long term this is going to be a positive change but...either my doctor is clueless about the process or she just didn't tell me. It takes some work to get there!!!
Hoping for a better......
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